I have been sick for a week. Apparently 30 doesn't mix well with healing. Who knew. I am learning alot about myself as of late. I TOTALLY eat when I am stressed (am I repeating myself here? maybe I have already discovered this...ah...dementia...gotta love it!)
I have got to learn to deny my flesh. I really want to stop this cycle before it is too late. To anyone who is at a healthy weight, tell me, what is your secret?
Speaking of anyone...is there anyone out there actually reading this or am I just sending these thoughts of mine out into the deep abyss?
And if you are reading, are you in the same boat? Can you relate?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Man, I wanted to get in another post for September. Oh, well.
Well the rest of September got away from me. Currently, it is 1:30 am and I am taking care of a sick 3 year old. He is resting comfortably now and I can't sleep, so here I am.
I have been doing much better on my eating and exercising as of late. Not where I need to be but we are on the right track. It always amazes me how much better I feel and how much more energy I have when I exercise. Why do I ever stop? Certainly things get in the way or a routine is disrupted by something or other.
I have been doing yoga first thing in the morning followed by some cardio on the ellyptical. I think I spelled that right. Since starting work, I have a fiber bar for breakfast and a slimfast shake for lunch. My problem time is when I get home from work. It isn't that I am just sooo hungry but rather I'm stressed and just want to unwind. Yes, I am an emotional eater and that really stinks. My job is pretty hectic and when it is over all I want to do is sit on the couch and munch away mindlessly if front of the tv. I am not sure how to replace this bad habit. I am usually drained at the end of my work day and know that I have much more to do when I get home and I just need some down time. The problem is I usually get myself into trouble by snacking while I am trying to relax and gear up for house work, after school activities, dinner etc.
The solution, however, is easy and staring me dead in the face. I really need to keep the tv off. I am already screaming "nooooo" in my head. It is just so nice to "zone out" for a while. Ideally I know I should get me some of that nature sounding music, you know, with the waves crashing or birds singing in the rain forest. I should get a cd of that, comp a squat in the floor, open up my bible and begin to pray and meditate. But that, you see, takes effort on my part and my flesh cries out and I give in. Ughhhh. here we go around the same stupid mountain.
Would you pray for me? Specifically for strength to stand up against my flesh. To be of the Spirit...to tell satan..."it is written, 'man does not live on bread alone but by every word that comes from God's mouth'".
I have been doing much better on my eating and exercising as of late. Not where I need to be but we are on the right track. It always amazes me how much better I feel and how much more energy I have when I exercise. Why do I ever stop? Certainly things get in the way or a routine is disrupted by something or other.
I have been doing yoga first thing in the morning followed by some cardio on the ellyptical. I think I spelled that right. Since starting work, I have a fiber bar for breakfast and a slimfast shake for lunch. My problem time is when I get home from work. It isn't that I am just sooo hungry but rather I'm stressed and just want to unwind. Yes, I am an emotional eater and that really stinks. My job is pretty hectic and when it is over all I want to do is sit on the couch and munch away mindlessly if front of the tv. I am not sure how to replace this bad habit. I am usually drained at the end of my work day and know that I have much more to do when I get home and I just need some down time. The problem is I usually get myself into trouble by snacking while I am trying to relax and gear up for house work, after school activities, dinner etc.
The solution, however, is easy and staring me dead in the face. I really need to keep the tv off. I am already screaming "nooooo" in my head. It is just so nice to "zone out" for a while. Ideally I know I should get me some of that nature sounding music, you know, with the waves crashing or birds singing in the rain forest. I should get a cd of that, comp a squat in the floor, open up my bible and begin to pray and meditate. But that, you see, takes effort on my part and my flesh cries out and I give in. Ughhhh. here we go around the same stupid mountain.
Would you pray for me? Specifically for strength to stand up against my flesh. To be of the Spirit...to tell satan..."it is written, 'man does not live on bread alone but by every word that comes from God's mouth'".
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)