Wow. Where have I been? Don't know if I have enough time to type it all out.
Know what I have discovered? It is really hard to break crappy habits. My biggest one...wasting time doing things that are of no use or benefit to me. How does that passage go again? Ah yes...
"I'm full of myself-after all, I've spent a long time in sin's prison. What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary. But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don't have what it takes. I can will it, but I can't do it. I decide to do good, but I don't really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. It happens so regularly that it's predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God's commands, but it's pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge."--Romans 7:14-23 The Message
BAM! There it is right there. I don't have what it takes in and of myself. The answer is Jesus. I have to give myself, intentions, decisions etc. over to Him daily if I want to gain any ground. By His grace I will replace bad habits with good ones. Habits that will better me and further His Kingdom.
